health/goals/reflections

 I did not enjoy the relaxation exercise as much this week.  I have done this same exercise before in a previous class, and for some reason I just have a hard time relaxing with this one.  I'm not sure exactly what it is, but I am sure that it works for some.

After reflecting on my own wellness I rate my physical health at a 6, my spiritual health at an 8, and my psychological health at an 8.  My physical health is at a 6 because I am getting healthier and stronger everyday, but I am not currently at my target weight.  I am halfway to my "final destination" (on the scale that is...), so I still have some work to do.  Having said that, the reason that I am FINALLY almost to my goal weight is because I stopped focusing on the physical and looked inward.  I had a lot of emotional and spiritual baggage I was carrying around.  I took some time to focus on my spiritual health and my psychological health and then it started to show itself in my physical body.  The reason that I rated my spiritual health and psychological health at an 8 is because I feel it is really good, but there is always room for growth and improvement.  It was (and still is) amazing to me how much of a difference it made to heal some spiritual and/or psychological "illnesses" in my physical health.  Lets just say I am better from the inside out!  My physical goal is to reach my target weight--I have 37 lbs to go!  My spiritual health goal is to continue to take time everyday to be quiet and reflect and pray.  And my psychological health goal is to stay sane!  (true, but just kidding!).  I think that it is good for me to challenge myself everyday and prove to myself that I am capable of many things if I put my mind to it!  Right now, I feel like I am implementing activities and exercises already in my daily routine.  After I eat breakfast, I usually take about 10 min (I would take more if I could) to reflect on some thoughts and pray.  I do lots of playing and running around with the kids, and I go to the gym 5 days a week.  We take a lot of walks and bike rides, etc.  And balancing being a mom, wife, student, maid, chef, and all the other "hats" I wear, plus trying to lose weight, is my challenge.  I push myself really hard at the gym.  Often times it is a mental battle, and I am learning to replace negative thoughts with positive ones; to have more confidence in myself; trust and believe in myself.  I have come a long way from where I started and I am just now learning that it is ok to be proud of that.  I am going to keep fighting to the finish!  *any advice is welcome*


Haddie